Friday, February 24, 2012

Sloth

Sloth

Give me ends untold by the crimson lords. Spread words of hatred upon the marooned heads of time. Creep along with me, creep along. Split the atoms of scattered loves and call for a halt (H: hungry, A: angry, L: lonely, T: tired).

I am all the adjectives, the sweet tragedies, the weary tunes, I am the faces behind the fire, the snow flecks on your skin, the grace of your decaying sight, I am punctuation, I am the spectator’s satisfaction. I am the aching honey.

Oh Muse I curse you, I heave you a sigh.

My ancestors the pharos half naked taught me how to hunt death, to idolize it. Half naked they visit my dreams and paint my soul with ancient runes and bring me a blue sun, a Nubian harp and long defeats. Half naked they inject the “bastard wisdom” of patience into my soul. Half dead they smile my life away.

My mother; the pure blood shoots them flies while standing on the whimpers of mermaids. My mother the pure blood plays the lead guitar in a symphony of light. She inhales heavens and exhales Hell. My mother the pure blood spanks the dreams out of me and fills me with broken gods. She restores arms and cuts the aid. My mother the pure blood dies in my grip and gets resurrected in my aging back.

Oh Muse I beg you, I light you a darkness.

I capture you my sweet child, I buy all the things, the deeds and the moments. I capture you my sweet child, I bestow poetry on you, I bless you with Blue and bathe you in forgetfulness.

My death is your Love to which the crystals of boredom are forged.





Saturday, February 18, 2012

Subjective Dizziness: Bad Writing

Subjective Dizziness
Bad Writing

Lines are made linear and I human. I need the beat, I sing the bite and breathe the shut doors of your maroon soul. I can’t skip the I, oh what shall I do? She never hugged me; she embraced me like a Jazz god heaving his thorny tunes. Oh she loved me, but no more, no more.

She is not my dream. She is my pocket money savior. I am too many adjectives. She is The Verb. No doubt she will be better off without me, no doubt.

Writing is never therapy; it is a deed just like any other. My short sentences are evidence of a long ongoing life full of “one damn thing after the other.” Do you wish to know me? What for? Why so? You really don’t. Writing is just an act of moving fingers, lips-biting and stained sheets. Just don’t, for I have nothing to show you.

She was a white smooth pillar burning the sun and darkening the moon. She brought the ends and cut the years. She discovered the here and consumed the now to the limit of mad sanity. She gave the yeses and fired the nos. She believed and believed and believed but never had faith. She smiled out of tears and wept within the silent laughter. She loves.

And loneliness prevails. Amongst the shouting tunes and crying solos you have got no place to mend your wings. Those raving promises you speak utter you. Climb the surface of your shell and throw me a nod my spoiled angel. Mention me in your iron prayers; in exchange, I will watch over you. You weave the truths, you play lead guitar, you free the land, you capture time and you shed me out of your blood.

She fought the wind and stole the frost. She flew over reality’s head and dived into the heart of wait. She sang the impossible and fled the possible. She needs no metaphors.

Bread is made of sweat and I of letters.


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

-Pre

-Pre

In this abyss of a soul remained untaken, I chose to wander joyfully till the verge of death. I am joyfully dead. This soul owns me. I am a perfect slave. I serve not my master; I serve his whip. I fuck the soul of my master’s mistress and piously I let her fuck me. My master knows not about this enterprise, he needs not to. Master is worried about things.

The next pages are always dirty of emptiness, and those who bless us with wine and blood ejaculate our lives. They build a narrative and let us bleed for more. Their kindness is overwhelmingly generous. We tell no stories; we are stories with only an ending. Those who bless us do not know our names; we suck theirs to form ours. We claim paradise.

Obscure not abstract. Responsible not guilty. Feels not knows. The crap of the titans. Your kakis will save you only amongst the masses. Kakis rule. Failure is an art and you win. Your hands are not mine, your smell is my death’s and you are every cliché I might utter and you win. And you kill me….and they bargain with you… and I fight them… and they drop you… and you sell me… and they buy you… and I die… and you win.

Do I speak? Do I do? Am I? The most powerful poem is wordless and the best wordless is a lie. The gathering of lovers is a gathering of false grammars. Grammar is the law of god and I shall dance muteness to the edge of memory. Love you I, lick you me, kills me us, there go you me for. Do I breathe?

The jelly ends are out of words, and thus they give way to verse.   



Saturday, February 4, 2012

عنقود


الحياة في خضم الموت موت

تنام على موت وتستيقظ أيضا على موت ومابينهما لا حياة، القاتل والمقتول كلاهما في فعل وأنت وحدك بكوارثك العليلة المتناهية في صغر أفقك منهار كبقايا ليلة رومية العربدة
 موجود أنت لذا لا تترك خطاك أثرا، لا ينتزع صوتك صداه. موجود بين أنا وأخرى

عروج على وشم وقتي

صباحاتك الممعنة في صفرتها تنساق في مجيئها نحو نحيب المادة وعروشك الهامدة في الآلة الحاسبة نبذتها ساعات الآت فأين الدم؟
أين الدم ومقلتيك لاتزالا في وجهك؟ أين الدم وكينونتك مطبوعة في فواتيرك؟ أين الدم في استمناءك على من هجرك؟ أين الدم؟

فردوس أبدي آخر

رصاصة في عمر زهرة تستقر في فكه \تنهره في محاولته لادخال قضيبه في دبرها\لايسقط ولكن ثمة أنين يُقبِّل روح على يساره زَهُقَت\يعض لسانه صافعا مؤخرتها المتلألأة\رصاصة أخرى ماجنة تنفجر في صدره\تتندر على قوة يده وصغر قضيبه\يسقط باسما\يقذف باكيا

ظلام شامخ

لا تتحرر فيومي مليئ بالأشياء، لا تتحرر فلم أُدعى إلى حفلة الجلباب، لا تتحرر فمزاج سيدي عكر، لا تتحرر فلم أكمل ملاحظاتي بعد، لا تتحرر فربما يزيد عدد من ينيك امرأتي، لا تتحرر فدمك لا يتناسق مع لون قميصك، لا تتحرر فموسيقى الرثاء تؤثر على بشرتي، لا تتحرر فأقلع عن سخطي، لا تتحرر فلازال الليل فتيا والظلمة حالمة

بزوغ نسبي

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